Wednesday, October 28, 2009

my greatest fear

I thought I saw a light at the end of this very dark, very long tunnel.

For weeks, I have not made an effort to update my dailies. Honestly, I don't know why I even bother. I thought this would finally let me explore the possibilities I have before me. Every few minutes, at the crack of dawn, my mind would swirl with thoughts trying to find their way out of the jungle that is my brain. This was something I thought I could commit to. Something I was finally going to get right. But like everything I am currently trudging through, this is, once again, an epic fail.

I don't know if writing that down would make me feel any better, to tell you the truth, I don't really feel anything right now. Maybe I could fix this.

It's a very long tunnel. And it's starting to feel rather hopeless. But I trudge anyway.

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