the negative committee

This heavy feeling is weighing me down. I used to love entertaining the idea of permanence and stability. I looked forward to achieving it and my actions reflected that desire. The effort I put forth was magnanimous. I wanted it.

Now, tears are slowly sliding down my cheeks. This frustration is becoming far too overwhelming for me. You took away that sense of wonder that took me too long to nurture. It was finally there - I was finally there. You destroyed it.

There was a time when I would have welcomed the tiniest sliver of encouragement you could send my way. Somehow, I never expected you to encourage me to give up.