Sunday, November 14, 2010

the valley and the green

The constant hum of voices to my left signals my privacy as I, once again, refuse to turn up early. It represents an effort to put up a pretense of being surrounded when I am, in fact, alone. A comfort of sorts to say the least, lest I feel the urge to cower under my blanket and hide.

My eyes travel down as my finger flawlessly trace over that roll of spine I so often make use of. Manipulation is a necessity and I somehow felt a tinge of regret at the things I have gathered. Suddenly, the valley has erupted like an optical illusion from around me, its vast expanse drowning me into its depths and my mind went a whirl. The green isn't a feeling I would like to visit. I believe no one does. It is a suffocating and horrid a place to hang around in. This is the place where people often forget and become blinded with the things they think they see.

I looked away and envisioned a place of contentment but the colour lingered and the feeling remained. I believe that despite the odds, I haven't gotten this far to simply be discouraged - not now. There are far more fruitful things up ahead.

I can never be too sure, but it never hurts to hope.

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