pain

I am exhausting all of my mortal strength trying to force this one post out of my pain-filled brain.

I know it isn't nice to be all whiny about pain when there are so many people out there struggling through pain that is much deeper than I am currently enduring. It leaves a bitter taste in other people's mouth to hear (or in this case - read) someone whine about how it is difficult for them to hurdle pain when a greater percentage of the population is battling chronic illnesses that brings more than the very superficial stinging.

But this isn't stinging. It's like a jagged knife searing through my already swollen mouth, my very tired body, and my sleep-deprived brain. A few nights ago, I was drinking cold water and was taken aback at how much pain such activity could cause. My teeth had never been extra sensitive to heat or cold so this is strange ground to me. And then last night saw the dawn of this overwhelming sensation. I just kept tossing and turning and my bed was a big mess of sheets by morning.

It feels like very sharp pointed stones are shooting out of my gums instead of a very tiny decaying tooth. I've never experienced tooth decay before. Like I said, strange ground. I am just going to stop here. I need another dose of pain killers. And food.

Dang it.